Struggling Tremendously

I didn't go to WI yesterday.  I knew I was up and I was, frankly, disgusted.  Not disgusted with myself, but disgusted with this struggle.  I am eating on Plan! Do I eat things that may be off plan? Absolutely, but the plan is supposed to account for that as long as I have points available.  So why the hell is this so hard?! 

I am not quitting, just took a Weigh In off.  I will continue to eat according to plan because, if nothing else, I am maintaining and I will accept that.  I just don't want to gain!

+.2 Really?

Yeah, this is the story of my life these days.  Up a fraction, down a fraction.  I am damned good at maintenance.  Too bad I want to lose 15 lbs!!

I think I might have discovered what I have been doing wrong (yet to be seen) and that is not measuring my fruit servings.  Fruit is free, so I wasn't particularly concerned about it.   I wasn't eating an entire watermelon at a time, but I can still put a few pieces of fruit away every day without much thought.  So, starting today, we will measure our fruit and anything over 2 servings is going to get counted, one way or another.

Lets see if that works!!

I Got Bit!!

This morning, as I walked out the back door going to work, I looked up at the porch light and there was this creature.  He/she looked like this:

Yes, a lovely little gecko.  Oddly he/she was wedged behind the light fixture and couldn't get out.  They are such odd looking little creatures and we love our lizards cause they can pack away some insects!  Seems like this one had shown up to the smorgasbord around the porch light and got caught somehow.   So I freed him/her.  He/She bit me.  That's gratitude for ya!

By the way, there was no pain involved for either of us!

Pictures (What Am Doing!?!)

I have never liked to have my picture taken!  I just honestly don't take a good photo.  Only pictures of myself that I have ever liked were done by a professional photog with serious airbrushing skills.  So there is not alot of pics of me around.  And the ones I have, I don't share readily.  But right now I am struggling to lose those last few pounds that are so damned difficult to shed and I thought a retrospective might give me a leg up.

And entertain you!! 

This first was Christmas 2009.  I had been a Weight Watcher all of 3 months at this time.

This next one is February 2010, so into it 6 months                                                                                       

This blurry thing was taken earlier this year.  Its one of a few full body shots I have.  I am getting a little less uncomfortable about having my picture taken.










This last one just a week or so ago.  I am seriously impressed by the change in my face alone.  I will never like the camera, but I can at least smile a little easier.

                                                                              

All in all, I am doing pretty good!                                                               

 



Woo-Hoo, I am still amongst the living...

and still amongst the losing!!  Down 1.6 today. 

Its a stressful time right now.  Summer has always been tough for me, but this summer we are doing home renovations.  OMG!!!  I need to move into a hotel.  One with room service and a Swedish masseuse named Sven sounds really good to me right about now!  Our house is about 30 years old and has been "flipped" at least once,  meaning lots of shoddy workmanship and cheap work arounds which means more work for us (read hubby!) and more cost to do what we want to do to get it where we want it to be. 

How am I losing?  Nervous energy, I am sure.